Finally.

My first post in more than a year, about time I guess.
Until now, I had not realized how difficult it is to be a teen.
Why is it difficult? I ask myself that everyday.
I made up a list, yes, I like lists.

1) For me, a shy teen, life makes it even harder. So a new school, new classes, new batchmates,what does that mean? A year full of anxiety, indigestion due to bitten nails swallowed by mistake, and yes, a lot of hair and clothes adjusting.

2) A lot of coursework, with an extra Spanish class.

3) As for talking, nope, never tried that in class. I should actually, if only my voice ever reached the person sitting next to me.

4) And I won't even get started on heartbreaks, but I will and I should. For it is one of my inspirations. How did I get entangled in this web, you might ask? For I was never unentangled, my friend. (Yes, making up words of my own is another thing I will talk about later.)
So, webs, spiders, Ronald Weasly, Hermione Granger, love, see everything leads to it, so how could I hide from it? Oh, I did try, and I tried hard, but my reserve you see is a debilitating being, it had to break down sometime. When it did, that pack of cards came falling down and laid on top of each other scattered, embodied together but each card still on it's own.
I was happy, someone had broken it down. The Happy Period was good, it was more than good. Then you fall. It's starts slowly, and once you are closely to the rocks only then do you realise how fast it was. And you do hit the rocks.

5)Pocket Money? Should I even elaborate? You always seem to spend more than you want to, and then suddenly you look into your wallet and there's nothing left. Nothing at all. Where did it all go? Your tummy growls again, "Shut up, you idiot. I just fed you."

6)The ROAD! That consistent, smooth road you're supposed to take, walk only on it and not venture upon untrodden paths, for they are dangerous. And you're supposed to have only one opportunity. Just one. Yes, the path leads somewhere, that somewhere is pretty and safe and stable.

You see, it isn't easy.
It seems so, but it isn't. It is anything but easy.